Our Begining...

Our Begining...

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Life...

so, I 've been going to the gym-busting to get back to the pre-baby weight and pre-birhtcontrol weight(which I'll NEVER use again)............at the gym, and I am so IN PAIN going to stretch before spinning class-----go in and the Silver Sneakers class is just fininshing and letting out-so I just sit and stretch my body and I am watching all of these little white haired old men and women, and they are so fragile and precious...they're in there just keeping themselves in motion-it's like they're just thankful to have made it thus far and thankful to have a nother day of health and the ability to even come to a class to meet little friends and fellowship and have fun....precious...then today, I go to the nursing home/rehabilitation center to visit my Granny and I sat with her at dinner-precious...played puzzle with Papa for about an hour and a 1/2-pitiful-----then my mom invites us to dinner-because dad is driving-wonderful time with her and hubby and the children----then I watch mom pay for our food...then she goes to purchase 3 york pepermints, as she holds Salah in her arms and I see her counting out her change, with her beautiful gray hair---and I just about lost it...!*****....just so precious...so emotional over life and how precious it is...fragile. We are fading, all of us, it's like I can't handle the thought of age and loss-I really have to give all my emotions to the Lord-He knows what I'm feeling-but I was just so overwhelmed with love and compassion for my mother and family and everything! We don't have much by this society's standards-but great day-I know the Lord has given me so much-He opens my eyes to reality all the time, and it's painful-and I am so GREATFUL-I do not want to be blind...we're fading and He is all that matters and His love in us for Him and others...even those that rub us way wrong-Lord deal with me! I need Him...He's so gracious to me-us...I want to serve Him...temporal THINGS do not matter-----------------when are we going ot get it?! We have them to give-not to boaste...............too much.....*********People are dying-babies are dying-eternity is at stake......................and we're concerned about what we're going to wear to a baby shower and how people are going to see us and what they'll think about our clothes and weight gain and wrinkles-the car we drive where we live.......children are malnutritioned and starving and in genuine need and we're dealing with obesity and materialism........Lord help me-----***** If we-I only realized how broken and naked we-I really are/am...


True religion is visiting and bearing the burdens of widows and orphans in their grief and afflictions...

Matthew 25

"As you have done it unto the least of these-you've done it unto ME"-Jesus